you bailed on me sissy
i jejunely believed that we are linked together that we are inseparatable sometimes when i was angry with you i dreamed about your non-existence i wanted to undergo some sort of surgery and run raway from you to liberate myself from your destructive influence and i knew you sometimes hated me and wished the same thing
i just didn't know you'd once take a scalpel and do it yourself cut me out like some sort of melanoma
and you walked away and never looked back while i was on the ground unable to move on when we were little you always looked away when i cried just like our father did and doesn't matter you still buy me nice presents for my birthdays just like it didn't matter when father kept sending me birthday postcards - you both lack the same amount of emotional depth which you try to substitude with materialism and symbolism you build totems you make birthday cakes that are supposed to manifest your affection your caring for the world when there is none
there's no point in blaming you or hating you - you are not able to understand what pain you have caused me and how it hurts - you have never felt such pain there is no hole inside of you deep enough you pushed me away from your life just because it wasn't any useful anymore to have me there no offense none taken
you've been ripped out of my tiny body and i will miss you forever because there is nothing and nobody that can make it up for you
i jejunely believed that we are linked together that we are inseparatable sometimes when i was angry with you i dreamed about your non-existence i wanted to undergo some sort of surgery and run raway from you to liberate myself from your destructive influence and i knew you sometimes hated me and wished the same thing
i just didn't know you'd once take a scalpel and do it yourself cut me out like some sort of melanoma
and you walked away and never looked back while i was on the ground unable to move on when we were little you always looked away when i cried just like our father did and doesn't matter you still buy me nice presents for my birthdays just like it didn't matter when father kept sending me birthday postcards - you both lack the same amount of emotional depth which you try to substitude with materialism and symbolism you build totems you make birthday cakes that are supposed to manifest your affection your caring for the world when there is none
there's no point in blaming you or hating you - you are not able to understand what pain you have caused me and how it hurts - you have never felt such pain there is no hole inside of you deep enough you pushed me away from your life just because it wasn't any useful anymore to have me there no offense none taken
you've been ripped out of my tiny body and i will miss you forever because there is nothing and nobody that can make it up for you
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