DELUSION

sometimes i brag about my ability to get on well with anybody but what i really do is far from that - these conversations i initiate go by always in several steps: at first i observe the way you speak laugh move i ask questions and let you talk until i get what i call a 'rough' image only then my transformation is getting started

my features melt and become more delicate or harsher i look at you fixedly until you can see in the pupils of mine your exact and clear reflection i widen my smile or bite my lip to hide it my moves synchronize with yours it's like we were dancing you make a step forward i step back i decelerate my pulse take deep breaths and then i slow down the tempo of my rumors (or start up my neurons to work it up much faster) i choose the same topics you have chosen i depict similar experiences with a cryptic grin

just like that for a fleeting while i become a part of your world although you easily forget about me the minute you shut the door for me it is far more consequential these conversations are like chemical reactions you crash the chains of my monomers so they pulsate stretch twirl and organize themselves again in a complete new way forever modified